Life is short. Eat dessert first.
Sometimes I sits and thinks. Sometimes I just sits.
Usually the time when I sits and thinks is when I wake up at 4:00 in the morning. That's the time when all those worrisome thoughts about the meaning of life bounce around in my empty skull and won't let me go back to sleep. I usually try to fight the urge to think but I rarely win. I would have never made a very good monk. I just can't say my prayers without letting my mind wander all over creation.
My most recent sleep disruptor is a thought that keeps haunting me no matter where I try to hide. I keep asking myself to try to make some sense of my existence here on planet earth. I just don't know why I'm here or what my existence means. I've been on the earth for more than 78 years and I still don't have a good explanation for what I'm doing here. The obvious stuff is easy of course. I try to be aware of my environment and enjoy the pleasures of all the gifts that have fallen into my life. Just look at those glorious young people holding hands under the rainbow. It doesn't get any better than that. That's easy to smile about. Good fortune beyond belief. How can one person get so lucky? No good answer occurs in my little head.
I've spent the last several years lunging between continents, bouncing from one "REALITY" to another. One moment I'm mowing the lawn in Foxboro and a day later I'm sipping a cupachino in Lucca. Now that I've finally decided to take the plunge and apply for an Italian retirement visa, I have to ask myself "Why?" Why am I doing this?
This isn't just an idle musing. It's a fundamental question that I MUST answer in filling out my visa application...my stated "Declaration of Intent"to Stay in Italy. The Italian government wants to know what my reasons are for wanting to live there. I have to answer the question. It's on the test!
In the spooky moments of silence during periods of inactivity, I think my answers boil down to the 3 Ms...the 3 Ms of Lucca as I like to say. That is, I seem to see 3 big improvements in these most important components of my life. They are something like this:
1. Control of my MOODS.
2. Control of my MOUTH. And
3. Control of my MONEY.
This is going to take a while. But I need to organize this for me and the Italian government. 🤠 Let's begin.
1. Control of my moods. Lucca makes it so easy for me to get a grip on my monkish failures. I just can't sit in a cell and meditate on the meaning of life. When I feel myself sliding down a rabbit hole in my apartment in Lucca, I have 2 major mood adjusters. I have my walking shoes. And I have my bicycle. They both work but in slightly different ways. When I head out on foot, the world is slow and deliberate. Walking allows me to see things and experience the world as most of the people around me are. People in Lucca rarely walk for "exercise", especially those who are Luccaise. They stroll. They are not out to burn calories. They are out to socialize. They are out to connect, with other people or with their surroundings. No Apple watches to measure time or distance. It's not a race. It's a conscious act of seeking pleasure in the company of others. Lucca does this gloriously. It's why I fell head over heels in love with the place. Slow down. Look at the mountains. Smell the Jasmine. Watch the show on the wall. Smile at the kids screaming with delight as they race their chariots. It never gets old...at least not for me.

No need to rush. Enjoy the stroll. Live.
My bicycle is option 2 and I often find myself trying to decide if I should hop on my bike and just pedal for the joy of feeling the wind in my face...like I was 12 again. The bicycle forces me to be much more vigilant. As the speed increases, so does the possibility of someone suddenly changing lanes or just stopping to admire the view. You've got to be watching 15-20 feet ahead to make sure you can brake or swerve if necessary. But the speed is also intoxicating. Going along on wheels is fun! The bicycle also vastly increases my range of the world that is open to me. On my bicycle, I can easily get out of the city and into the Tuscan countryside in just a few minutes. Over the centuries, Lucca has built a series of embankments which protect the city from the destructive powers of floods. The embankments are the logical place to also install protected bicycle/pedestrian paths which go on for miles outside of Lucca.
Safe and well maintained bike path outside of Lucca.
It would be a hefty walk to get to these Tuscan trails but with a bike, I can easily ride for miles without meeting any noisy traffic. Quite honestly, I don't think I've ever met another American on these trails and even Italians are few and far between. Usually, it's just me and my bike rolling along the path for miles alongside the river. It's good for the soul. It's the monk's life without the prayers. I was never very good at prayers and I still find being alone can be a downer if I don't fight the voice of the little guy in the basement. My bicycle is connected to my mood.
So being in Lucca helps me enormously with the 1st big M...my mood
The second M...my MOUTH. Part of my pre-departure ritual is to do a 2-3 day fast. This has nothing to do with losing weight, though that's a temporary result of the fasting. The purpose of fasting prior to traveling is to prepare my body for the shock of traveling for 36 hours with very unpredictable meals and zero sleep. My body has to learn how to function without the food rush. Once I arrive in Lucca and can locate a grocery store that is OPEN, I'll be OK.
The new American reality. Processed food.
If you are curious about how the United States has changed since the 1950s, search for photos of Americans on the beach 70 years ago. It's shocking. People are visibly thinner and obviously in better shape. What changed? Well, our food supply for one thing. Mega portions. Processed foods. Eternal snacks and universal easy access to junk calories makes it impossible to get more than 500 yards from instant gratification. There are SIX Dunkin Donuts 🍩 stores that I know of (and probably 3 more that I don't!)here in the little town of Foxboro. Gas stations, convenience stores, mini marts, and even pharmacies are all ready to push diet sodas, chips to make you drink more of the diet sodas, and even sweet treats for "after snacks". Is this paradise or what?
One of my favorite folks on my walking route around Foxboro(Brandon) told me his tale about getting control over his eating behavior. It was a true saga of the struggle we all face in the land of the eternal Big Mac. His own journey started about a year ago and the results are laudatory. 35 pounds lost. Blood pressure down 20 points. More energy. Clothes that are too big around the waist. Real Results!
What was the secret sauce? Eating real food. Staying away from processed toxins. Real protein instead of sugar/salt laced garbage. This is exactly what happens to me when I arrive in Lucca. I lose weight. My blood pressure goes down. I can throw away the drugs. I can walk anywhere I please. I can bicycle anytime I feel the need for movement. I have no choice about what kind of food I'm ingesting. Almost all the food in front of me is local and chemical free. Snacks are available but even those are relatively non toxic because the European Union has very strict laws about what gets into the food supply. But more than anything else, Italians demand high quality food and they usually market frequently. I'm just doing what everyone else around me is doing. When in Rome...do as the Romans do. No real thought needed.
Well, now we arrive at M#3. Control over Money. This is a bit more complicated than the first 2 Ms. Control over one's money requires that we understand what we mean by "MONEY". I'm not really going to get into the weeds here but it's really important to explain that money is not the same as "WEALTH". Being wealthy has very little to do with any arbitrary amount of money. Really? Is this going to be on the test? Yup. Sure us. It's important!
This is money. Wealth is different.
Let me explain the problem here. First of all let me ask you to think about some person in your own experience who you would consider to be truly wealthy. It shouldn't take too long to think of someone you know (or have heard about!) who you would classify as "wealthy". Now try to explain to someone else WHY that person is so rich. Big house on Cape Cod...Lamborghini in the driveway. Servants all over the place. Downtown Abbey as you know it.
Now consider this before you fall asleep on me. Consider the tale of the financial consultant who tells this story about presenting a financial planning seminar for a group of CEOS. She tries to answer the same question of the gathered high powered participants in the room. As you have probably guessed, this is a trick question. Her answer about the richest person in the room? Why... it was the woman who stood up in the middle of the seminar and calmly announced that she was leaving...because she needed to go to her DAUGHTER'S DANCE RECITAL! OMG.
Money isn't wealth. Wealth is doing what you want...when you want. Wealth is freedom, not money. Wealth is having the freedom to choose how you want to live. Pause for a moment to think of all those CEOs working 90 hour weeks, stressed to the max because of this quarters sales numbers, forced to stand in front of TV cameras to explain why investors should buy his/her company's stock, living the American Dream in full color. These folks are little more than over priced slaves. They have more money than they can keep track of. But they are spiritual papers.
Lucca forces me to look at myself. Lucca forces me to look in the mirror. Lucca doesn't care what I'm wearing. Lucca doesn't care about the size of my bank account or the luxury of my apartment. Lucca just expects me to enjoy what's in front of me. Smell the Jasmine. Savor the coffee. Taste the food. Enjoy the moment. Learn how to live. BE WEALTHY. IT'LL BE GOOD FOR YOU.
So those are a brief survey of the 3 Ms. They are sort of related to my existence in Lucca though not rigidly linked. What Lucca does provide for me is time and space to reflect on what's important. I guess that's good enough for now. And it keeps me satisfied that I don't really need to become a monk after all in order to get closer to heaven. I'm already very close when I'm there.
That's my story. And I'm stickin to it.